Warning: Random Feel-badness here.
Mar. 14th, 2004 11:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dagas_isaIf you hate angsty!Dagas, do not read. Got that? Good.
So I'm feeling pretty blah right now. It might have to do with the complete lack of face to face or voice to voice interaction I've had this weekend. Hence the pestering of the Me-chan, and the general kinda downness in all the chats/IMs I've been carrying on this weekend.
Also, I blame my lack of concentration on this. It's Sunday night, and I've yet to get anything done. I'm doing my Japanese right now, and I probably need to get some anthro reading done. Pretty much I've been avoiding doing homework. Heck, I even did a romanization today, although my concentration sucks. I made my bed last night. And did laundry Friday. Pretty much everything to avoid either homework or talking online.
Okay, so I didn't really avoid talking online. I first started talking to Arcadia (Arccy-chan) from the board. She's a perv. Which is probably good that I can actually have some not-so-clean fun with someone. Remember that Sora Dendrophiliac scene? There's an extension on it now. One that will not be posted in this journal, but is stored on my lappie.
Other than that, I finished up the RPness with Brant, so unless I drag Lana back into it, I'm pretty much out again. Which is good. Cause Dagas is really bad at RP, especially with fighting type scenes. *shrugs* Kinda doubt I'm wanted anyway.
Dunno... I'm ready to just call someone, but the only person I can call probably doesn't want to hear from me now. You know, I keep saying that I'm bothering you, and I know you're busy, but it always feels like you have time for everyone except for me and that the only time I can have a conversation with you is when I poke you and prod you. But that's just me. And I'm paranoid. And I'm sure you love me, and would want to talk to me if I weren't so darn angsty all the time. And blah blah blah. I *heart* you. I really do. But I've said this before, and I'll say it again. If you are avoiding me, if you are letting go, I would rather hear you say it directly than go through this stupid paranoia. If you don't need Dagas anymore, and if this friendship isn't benefitting you, just get out of it. Right now, you're hanging on because you want to do the right thing and help out someone who used to be your best friend. Not because you have any particular fondness for her. That hurts. Okay. That really does hurt.
Over and out.
So I'm feeling pretty blah right now. It might have to do with the complete lack of face to face or voice to voice interaction I've had this weekend. Hence the pestering of the Me-chan, and the general kinda downness in all the chats/IMs I've been carrying on this weekend.
Also, I blame my lack of concentration on this. It's Sunday night, and I've yet to get anything done. I'm doing my Japanese right now, and I probably need to get some anthro reading done. Pretty much I've been avoiding doing homework. Heck, I even did a romanization today, although my concentration sucks. I made my bed last night. And did laundry Friday. Pretty much everything to avoid either homework or talking online.
Okay, so I didn't really avoid talking online. I first started talking to Arcadia (Arccy-chan) from the board. She's a perv. Which is probably good that I can actually have some not-so-clean fun with someone. Remember that Sora Dendrophiliac scene? There's an extension on it now. One that will not be posted in this journal, but is stored on my lappie.
Other than that, I finished up the RPness with Brant, so unless I drag Lana back into it, I'm pretty much out again. Which is good. Cause Dagas is really bad at RP, especially with fighting type scenes. *shrugs* Kinda doubt I'm wanted anyway.
Dunno... I'm ready to just call someone, but the only person I can call probably doesn't want to hear from me now. You know, I keep saying that I'm bothering you, and I know you're busy, but it always feels like you have time for everyone except for me and that the only time I can have a conversation with you is when I poke you and prod you. But that's just me. And I'm paranoid. And I'm sure you love me, and would want to talk to me if I weren't so darn angsty all the time. And blah blah blah. I *heart* you. I really do. But I've said this before, and I'll say it again. If you are avoiding me, if you are letting go, I would rather hear you say it directly than go through this stupid paranoia. If you don't need Dagas anymore, and if this friendship isn't benefitting you, just get out of it. Right now, you're hanging on because you want to do the right thing and help out someone who used to be your best friend. Not because you have any particular fondness for her. That hurts. Okay. That really does hurt.
Over and out.
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Date: 2004-03-15 12:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-15 06:27 am (UTC)And I know that people *heart* me, even if I don't show it.
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Date: 2004-03-15 06:25 am (UTC)Quit with the angst!
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Date: 2004-03-15 06:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-15 06:32 am (UTC)Ask for it sometime, I'm not putting it up here.
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Date: 2004-03-15 07:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-15 07:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-15 07:38 am (UTC)*points to AIM and IRC channel* I'm there is you want to talk
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Date: 2004-03-15 08:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-15 12:58 pm (UTC)Snap outta it! We all love ya, brat, now smarten up and look alive! Enough with the angst, ya hear?
*nods firmly*
...*runs and cuddles anyways*