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Feb. 15th, 2004 02:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dagas_isaLet me clarify a few things for you people who have had to deal with the Saturday Night Angst Dagas. Especially Valentine's Day Angst Dagas:
Yes, I did some things last night that were not healthy. I admit it, and I did them for no particular reason. I walked down Sixth street. Alone. which was terrifying in itself. I don't think it was cold enough for the hoodie thing to be an issue. I managed to get back safely, so please don't worry. Yes, and I also did some pointiness on my wrist. That was bad. Dagas knows that it was bad, and she won't be doing it again.
As for the pain that I'm inflicting on people... ignore me, and it'll go away.
Look, I'm trapped between two things: wanting to have people care about me and love me, and wanting to be left alone and to my own devices. I am not socially well-adjusted, and this is completely the fault of my own. I don't have a rapport with people, and as I hope everyone has figured out, I am self-centered, self-obsessed, all those things that makes for a disgusting specimen of humanity. But because no one but me can see my motivations, and they can't see that they're not pure, I can't really say that without getting flamed, whapped upside the head, or otherwise beat down.
So, I guess I'll just make a funny little list:
That made no sense.
I had a dream last night. I can't really give the details of the dream, but I was looking through a personal book of Me-chan's, like a scrap book or something, only kind of online I guess. I don't know. I looked through it, finding things that pertained to certain secrets that I hold or think that I might hold. Things that I know that a lot of my friends wouldn't approve of, Me-chan among them. But...instead of finding things that condemned them and me by extension, they were things that signfied that even if she didn't approve of that part of me, she would still support me, whatever I did or happened to be.
There be wisdom in the dreams of fools, ne?
Over and out.
Yes, I did some things last night that were not healthy. I admit it, and I did them for no particular reason. I walked down Sixth street. Alone. which was terrifying in itself. I don't think it was cold enough for the hoodie thing to be an issue. I managed to get back safely, so please don't worry. Yes, and I also did some pointiness on my wrist. That was bad. Dagas knows that it was bad, and she won't be doing it again.
As for the pain that I'm inflicting on people... ignore me, and it'll go away.
Look, I'm trapped between two things: wanting to have people care about me and love me, and wanting to be left alone and to my own devices. I am not socially well-adjusted, and this is completely the fault of my own. I don't have a rapport with people, and as I hope everyone has figured out, I am self-centered, self-obsessed, all those things that makes for a disgusting specimen of humanity. But because no one but me can see my motivations, and they can't see that they're not pure, I can't really say that without getting flamed, whapped upside the head, or otherwise beat down.
So, I guess I'll just make a funny little list:
- Humans are inherently valuable. I am human. Thus I am inherenly valuable.
- Humans exist to bring happiness. If, at one time, I have ever brought someone more happiness than unhappiness, then I am valuable.
- Human beings are capable of rational thought. If I am human, I am capable of rational though. I just don't care to use it.
That made no sense.
I had a dream last night. I can't really give the details of the dream, but I was looking through a personal book of Me-chan's, like a scrap book or something, only kind of online I guess. I don't know. I looked through it, finding things that pertained to certain secrets that I hold or think that I might hold. Things that I know that a lot of my friends wouldn't approve of, Me-chan among them. But...instead of finding things that condemned them and me by extension, they were things that signfied that even if she didn't approve of that part of me, she would still support me, whatever I did or happened to be.
There be wisdom in the dreams of fools, ne?
Over and out.
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Date: 2004-02-15 09:44 pm (UTC)Um...yeah...
Date: 2004-02-17 11:15 pm (UTC)So yeah, there you go. Luv ya! No really, I do!
XOX
Lyrique