Someone please explain.
Feb. 1st, 2004 12:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dagas_isaWhy must you all insist on trying to raise my self-esteem...
Look, I'm fine with my self-esteem. In fact, I needed lowered several notches. I used to believe that I was something so incredibly special and intelligent and talented. And now, guess what, I'm facing the fact that I'm not. I never was, and you know what, I will always be a moron because I'm too lazy to develop intellectually. Live with it.
If I want to say that I stink at something, you know, that's something that you'll have to accept.
Look, I was a terrible, terrible writer up until I started IDT. Heck, IDT was probably the first decent thing I ever wrote. As for all the things that those who don't know better associate with intelligence, the high test scores, the so-called good grades achieved with a minimum of effort. None of that really matters. I know that I'm barely intelligent enough to hold a decent conversation with. ^_^ As Naela might say: not intelligent enough to tolerate on AIM. And anything else I have, I doubt is a talent.
Look, as much as you guys try to tell me that I'm important, I know I'm not. So GIVE IT UP. I can disappear tomorrow, and if I did it quietly enough, no one would notice.
And yes, you may have your original characters eat my fearsome Moogle pom-pom, but I rock no one's socks. Live with it. Okay? You all do fine without me. Perhaps even better.
Over and out.
Edit: I've been a nasty drama queen lately. That alone deserves death.
2nd Edit: This is just turning into a great, melodramatic night. I just got back from being outside. It was going to stay out there for awhile and see what happened. But it was 2 a.m. on a Saturday night, and people were actually still out and about. So I went outside a couple of times, chickened out, came back in and wandered the back ways of Newman for awhile. And obviously, I'm in my room now. Having solved nothing. Except for the fact that I'm too chicken to do anything about my mental issues, good or bad. That's pretty much taken care of. That and the fact that I do not need to be passing down my genes. But really, it's February, and I've already exhaused my supply of mental breakdowns for the year.
Look, I'm fine with my self-esteem. In fact, I needed lowered several notches. I used to believe that I was something so incredibly special and intelligent and talented. And now, guess what, I'm facing the fact that I'm not. I never was, and you know what, I will always be a moron because I'm too lazy to develop intellectually. Live with it.
If I want to say that I stink at something, you know, that's something that you'll have to accept.
Look, I was a terrible, terrible writer up until I started IDT. Heck, IDT was probably the first decent thing I ever wrote. As for all the things that those who don't know better associate with intelligence, the high test scores, the so-called good grades achieved with a minimum of effort. None of that really matters. I know that I'm barely intelligent enough to hold a decent conversation with. ^_^ As Naela might say: not intelligent enough to tolerate on AIM. And anything else I have, I doubt is a talent.
Look, as much as you guys try to tell me that I'm important, I know I'm not. So GIVE IT UP. I can disappear tomorrow, and if I did it quietly enough, no one would notice.
And yes, you may have your original characters eat my fearsome Moogle pom-pom, but I rock no one's socks. Live with it. Okay? You all do fine without me. Perhaps even better.
Over and out.
Edit: I've been a nasty drama queen lately. That alone deserves death.
2nd Edit: This is just turning into a great, melodramatic night. I just got back from being outside. It was going to stay out there for awhile and see what happened. But it was 2 a.m. on a Saturday night, and people were actually still out and about. So I went outside a couple of times, chickened out, came back in and wandered the back ways of Newman for awhile. And obviously, I'm in my room now. Having solved nothing. Except for the fact that I'm too chicken to do anything about my mental issues, good or bad. That's pretty much taken care of. That and the fact that I do not need to be passing down my genes. But really, it's February, and I've already exhaused my supply of mental breakdowns for the year.
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Oh for the sake of crepes.
Date: 2004-02-01 08:57 pm (UTC)You are talented, and smart, and if you keep beating yourself up over your 'supposed' inhibitions, I am going to bash you over the goddamned head, kapeesh?
*nods* Said my piece.
~Chevira.
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Date: 2004-02-01 09:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-01 09:11 pm (UTC)You've got the people who are intelligent enough for occasional contact or in mass contact, but not intelligent enough for one on one AIM stuffs.
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Date: 2004-02-01 09:17 pm (UTC)Hello Kitty also has no mouth.
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Date: 2004-02-01 09:23 pm (UTC)Go... bother... Megumi for a bit.
^_^