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A cry for help
Apr. 9th, 2003 07:27 amOkay, I don't feel so bad now, 'cause I just got another review. But I was doing awful this morning, and I need to get some of it off my chest before it comes back with a vengence. Honestly, I don't care who reads this right now.
I need help. Not like psychologist help (not right now at least), but practical help. I haven't done anything that I"m supoed to be doing. College stuff? Not done. Job applications? Not done (not even the one for Panera). Why? Because I have some stupid hang up about not filling out the forms correctly and essentially looking like the piece of nothing I am on paper. No one . . . and I mean no one . . . in their right mind would even bother to deal with me if they knew who I truly was.
I wish someone could help guide me through all these processes, and then something might get done. Otherwise, I can't do anything. My laziness and fear wins the day. But my parents refuse to help me, and I don't know if this is something that I can really ask my friends for help for. Honestly. Help!
I need help. Not like psychologist help (not right now at least), but practical help. I haven't done anything that I"m supoed to be doing. College stuff? Not done. Job applications? Not done (not even the one for Panera). Why? Because I have some stupid hang up about not filling out the forms correctly and essentially looking like the piece of nothing I am on paper. No one . . . and I mean no one . . . in their right mind would even bother to deal with me if they knew who I truly was.
I wish someone could help guide me through all these processes, and then something might get done. Otherwise, I can't do anything. My laziness and fear wins the day. But my parents refuse to help me, and I don't know if this is something that I can really ask my friends for help for. Honestly. Help!
